Rogue Idea

I’m not really the type to go out and do stuff on my own.  It sucks going places alone and I think most people would agree.  Frank and I have been planning to go bike riding and be more active a lot lately and it has been working ‘okay’ so far.  We have at least been on our bikes quite a few times already and I’m really happy with that.  BUT I don’t think it’s enough.  I want to go out and play some tennis or something with him but he doesn’t want to because its ‘too hot’.  The only problem with that is that its ALWAYS ‘too hot’ for him.  I have suggested to go at night and he turns me down then too even though night time is the coolest time to play and plenty of courts around here have the lights on at night.

Even when I suggest to go bike riding he doesn’t want to unless the weather is almost perfect AND he is in the mood to.  I thought exercising was supposed to be about setting good habits, not doing it only when you felt like it.  I know I’m being kind of harsh on myself and him too about this but I’m trying to get in shape and its frustrating when I can’t go out and do stuff everyday and then we end up only doing something active like MAYBE twice a week.  I’m not going to blame Frankie but I gues I am just realizing that I need to get over my issue with going out on my own to do stuff.  I like being with him and having him there to help me but it’s really annoying the hell out of me to not be able to do stuff just cause I don’t wanna do it alone.  I wish I had some gym equipment at my house or something.  I kind of want to  just go outside and run or bike around but after hearing one of my friends talk ab out how she almost was kidnapped while running alone last month I don’t really feel all that great about doing that.

well today i am gonna clean up the house a bit and hopefully arisu doesn’t have an issue with that.  she has had two accidents after the new dyson has been used the last times so hopefully today she won’t do it again.

Well I heard about this couch to 5k program from a forum i’m on and so i decided i’m going to try it.  i made a very super sad attempt at it today and it totally kicked my ass.  i am completely out of shape and didnt even last 10 minutes (supposed to be 25-30 minutes per work out in this program).  So yeah I will probably stuck on being on ‘week 1′ stuff for quite a while until i can do it without feeling like killing myself.  beside that it was starting to rain and my ears were getting too cold to stay out while still feeling comfortable.  I was with frankie and arisu and they both did way better than me, lol.  so i have to a lot to work on.

speaking of arisu she has been much better lately about guarding her food and toys.  I’ve taught her ‘drop it’ recently and so she has learned to drop things.  I had to slowly work up from toys to her bones and food and some things she tries to get like pens and stuff she shouldnt be playing with.  that along with feeding her by hand every once in a while has made her a lot less crazy about guarding her food and things.  shes also more easily able to focus back on me and not be so ‘obsessed’ with her current thing she is watching/guarding.  today she was guarding her bowl of food and i asked her to go in her crate and she did!  shes also dropped bones for me (that she wouldve attacked anyone for in the past) and other things that i really didnt think would be easy for her to give up already.  so that is progressing really well!

frankie gave me a tripod for my camera for valentines day so I am going to try to make some little videos of her doing stuff or learning new stuff from now on =)

well not as much as i was yesterday and the day before.  My legs are feeling much better after doing the crazy plyometrics work out.  the other stuff i’ve done is the ab ripper and shoulders and arms.  Today I will get back on schedule and do Kenpo, whatever the hell that is.  I got up today and my legs aren’t hurting as bad going up or down the stairs but they are still a little sore,  but MUCH MUCH better than yesterday.  My arms are not as sore as I’d thought they would be but next time I do shoulders and arms again I’m gonna do all the reps and maybe more to see if that will work.  Some of the exercises are really hard to do though and I have to put it on slo mo just to see how exactly they are doing it.  I’m thinking of getting someone to watch me so they can help me on my form.  I try to slow the dvd down so i can do it correctly but its hard cause im concentrating on doing the exercise and sometimes the rest of me does weird stuff to try to accommodate.    I’m going to stop by walmart today to get one of those measuring tape things that are just a roll so i can measure myself, i’m tired of measuring with a string and then measuring the string afterward.

I’m also feeling freakin hungry all the time ever since I started, so I’m guessing I’m not eating enough or something.  I haven’t been following the diet exactly though, just sort of ‘loosely’ because I haven’t had time to sit down and count everything out.  So I’m thinking of buying the little grocery list and making the meals they suggest that way I don’t have to count at all I can just eat whenever I’m supposed to and what I’m supposed to.

Yesterday I met this girl to play tennis and thankfully she did not turn out to be a weirdo so we are gonna play again this coming saturday.  Thankfully by then my finals will be over and I’ll be much more relaxed and in the mood to play.  I got my ass kicked though, which I guess makes sense cause I haven’t played in like 2 weeks.  I kind of miss practicing with tommy cause he always showed me what to do and helped me a lot, but i would feel weird calling him up now out of the blue.  Well i have my chemistry final tomorrow so i better go study all day today.  I’m also going to that job interview with that lady later today too so hopefully that goes well and they are not freakos.  I passed by the street that they live on the other day though and they are really big houses so they must be rich.  okay thats all for now

first few days have been kicking my ass. literally. physically. my ass hurts really bad when im walking or even just doing anything. and my legs are all sore and crazy too but my ass hurts the most even though it was a lower leg work out except for a few parts that ar supposed to work your butt muscles. anyways i am too tired to blog about it too much but these are some pictures for my ‘before’ pics that they told me to take. youre supposed to have 6 , two facing front with hands on hip and arms up, two facing back and hands on hip and arms up, then one of your side, and one of a ‘twist’ type of pose which i couldnt really get right. agh anyways im too lazy to type about it, i will later

well i am trying to find a job that is really flexible for me because i have to work it around my classes and my sister’s schedule because one of us has to be home in the day to watch over the youngest one.  its a pain in the ass but yeah i have to deal with it.  in the surge of getting all pumped up about working out i applied at this fitness place (hoping to access to closer gym equipment since UH is 45 minutes away) but unfortunately I applied one day late and they had someone already.  I will apply at another fitness place this coming week to see if i can get a job there.

starting in may i will be on the p90x exercise program.  its going to lst until august and me frankie and gordon are having a little friendly competition on who will get better results.  me and frank are gonna do the p90x thing and gordon is gonna make up his own routine which he thinks will be better than the one p90x made up.  once i get my ripped abs i will beat him up with it! lol just kidding.  but im not in this to lose weight i just wanna tone up all around and especially my thighs and stomach so hopefully it works.  tomorrow im going to take all my measurements and maybe print out a log sheet to write all my little stuff on it while doing the exercises.  im also supposed to take 6 pictures in these poses so i can compare myself at the end.

i have finals the next two weeks so i will probably not be online much since i will be studying hardcore for a while and plus thursday i start my p90x thing and if its as intense as people say it is , its possible i will just be in too much pain to sit here and type but i hope that is not the case.  i have al ot of things to do this week and i hope that i can do good on my finals so i dont lower my gpa anymore than i already have.  alright i am going to go out with my gordon and linda today (and chau, but she said she cant go now) so hopefully i will have a breezy day.  wtf.  i just lost connection and then got it back again.  wellat least it wasnt saving this post or else iw ould be all pissed off.  oh yeah and spekaing of pissed off my windshield cracked again cause a rock hit it on the freeway.  ugh this is already my 2nd windshield so now i will have to move on to my third !