Rogue Idea

I’m not really the type to go out and do stuff on my own.  It sucks going places alone and I think most people would agree.  Frank and I have been planning to go bike riding and be more active a lot lately and it has been working ‘okay’ so far.  We have at least been on our bikes quite a few times already and I’m really happy with that.  BUT I don’t think it’s enough.  I want to go out and play some tennis or something with him but he doesn’t want to because its ‘too hot’.  The only problem with that is that its ALWAYS ‘too hot’ for him.  I have suggested to go at night and he turns me down then too even though night time is the coolest time to play and plenty of courts around here have the lights on at night.

Even when I suggest to go bike riding he doesn’t want to unless the weather is almost perfect AND he is in the mood to.  I thought exercising was supposed to be about setting good habits, not doing it only when you felt like it.  I know I’m being kind of harsh on myself and him too about this but I’m trying to get in shape and its frustrating when I can’t go out and do stuff everyday and then we end up only doing something active like MAYBE twice a week.  I’m not going to blame Frankie but I gues I am just realizing that I need to get over my issue with going out on my own to do stuff.  I like being with him and having him there to help me but it’s really annoying the hell out of me to not be able to do stuff just cause I don’t wanna do it alone.  I wish I had some gym equipment at my house or something.  I kind of want to  just go outside and run or bike around but after hearing one of my friends talk ab out how she almost was kidnapped while running alone last month I don’t really feel all that great about doing that.

well today i am gonna clean up the house a bit and hopefully arisu doesn’t have an issue with that.  she has had two accidents after the new dyson has been used the last times so hopefully today she won’t do it again.

So here starts my first summer without school.  no current classes and no future classes pending yet!  It feels very relaxing but also stressful because now i have to pay off a butt load of loans lol.  I’m going to be researching and lookingup programs and grad schools to attend this summer and hopefully getting a job too to help pay off some bills.  other than that i’m going to be enjoying my time at home with little arisu =)  just wanted to check in here and i am glad to see there isnt a new wordpress update today =)