Rogue Idea

Well, I’m going out to my first college football game today so I’m pretty excited. I’m going early to help out with the tailgating stuff. Even though I have no idea what the hell tailgating means. Apparently people just…go and eat food together before the game. Whatever, I’m excited. Not only that - but when I joined Coogs Crew I was supposed to get a t-shirt but of course, they had no size smalls. Now they have them in and since I’ll be there early today I’ll finally get mine! This is awesome for me because I don’t have any red t-shirts besides an old choir shirt (thats not even mine, I wasn’t in choir) and a UH Bookstore T-shirt, which I don’t really count as a UH shirt since it says “YES - I CAN HELP YOU” really really freakin big on it. In fact I try to avoid wearing that shirt at all costs, lol.

A part of me is sort of telling me to stay home and study since I have my plant anatomy exam on Monday and honestly I haven’t done much for that class.  But I’ve been waiting to go to this game, so I’m planning to just go and then come back tonight and study and study all day tomorrow and Monday.  Of course immediately after that I have to start reviewing for my human genetics exam on Thursday then but oh well I am kind of used to this routine.  Yesterday I got my MCAT score and let’s just say its very bad.  Well..I guess not suicidal bad, but close.  I would consider it ‘failing’ even though you can’t “fail” the mcat.  I already knew it would be bad, I’m planning on retaking it but the problem now is that I’m not even really sure if I want to go into the medical field.  I mean most people who wanna do it are in it for the money or really wanna help people.  Now…it’s not that I hate helping people or anything,  but it just seems like going way overboard if you go through ALL that JUST to help people.  Of course I’m glad people do or else we’d have no doctors, but at the same time for someone like me who isn’t all about helping the world - well, it’s kind of not really a good deal on my end.  Then theres the money factor and basically I know that most people going into the health field are in it for the promise of finding a steady job with a good steady income.  This is good too because if only people who had a passion to help others went to be in the health field we’d all be screwed cause there wouldn’t be enough of them.  But at the same time, going through ALL that just to make money - even potentially a lot of money - seems a little crazy for me.  I’m not saying it’s not worth it I’m just saying there’s gotta be a better way to the money if you’re just in it for that reason.   So now I don’t really know what the hell to do with my life.  I feel so discouraged cause like everyone is sort of in the same situation with getting into med school right now.  By everyone I mean a lot of  people who I’ve met these past few years who said they wanted to go to med school or pharmacy school or whatever.

Okay well I gotta head out there now!!