Rogue Idea

hello its me again, logging in to rant and take a break from learning about genetics.  besides the enormous pressure of being under a time crunch this week i dont really have much on my plate.  not because i ‘dont’ but more because theres just no room for anything else this week except for petty little errands because most of my time will be spent on studying for my genetics exam this thursday.

well a couple of days ago (or maybe a week now) i was notified by this girl through email that i won this free CSS book from someone in the UK i think??  i dont really know, basically i just found this site and there was a contest so i entered.  well the publisher has contacted me for my info so hopefully the book will come soon (i am guessing it will be coming all the way from europe) and hopefully it will be of good use to me.  and this is REALLY good because that means that i dont have to scope out css books from the library and see how long and how many times i can renew it until they dont let me anymore.  but lately i have been very pleased with my library because they have a very big online collection of ‘e-books’ too so now i have a lot of resources that i can use without leaving my desk to drive all the way there to check out.  anyways i will probably write more about that whenever i get the book.

so even though school is back in session and i’ve got a shit load of things to do the great thing is that i do not have to go to school on wednesdays anymore, which means i’ve basically only got 3 more days of school left - tuesday, thursday, and then next tuesday.  actually i dont even know if we have school next tuesday or not.  but having this wednesday off will be a big help since my exam is on thursday.  unfortunately i forgot to email my TA for my lab class though so i have no idea what my grade is in that class.  well i got a 76 on the final exam which sucks really bad.  the highest score was an 82, which yes, is only 6 points away from a 76 ;  BUT i wanted a damned hundred.  a lot of the stuff i knew but it was just taking off points on tiny little details , like for one thing i put ‘reaction will occur’ and i had to put in ‘precipitate’ into my answer somewhere. its as if the explanations count for nothing if you dont mention the ONE keyword they were looking for.  so that kind of pissed me off.  hopefully my TA will email me with my grade soon though so i can just know what i got and move on quickly.

well thanksgiving has passed. that means that people are going crazy over sales.  well yesterday i went shopping and i got 40% of these really nice pants so that was good for me because i needed some new pants anyways.  besides just wnating some new clothes i dont really know what else i would like this christmas.  i do need to cough up some ideas of whati want though because people have already started asking (early, i know) so i gotta think of a short list or something.  well whats even more frustrating is thati need to BUY gifts.  i have no idea what i wanna get people and especially my frankie.  i totally forgot to ask my cousins what they wanted or needed lately on thanksgiving so now i am drawing a blank.  not that i NEED to buy these immediately, but with all the frenzied people i saw out there yesterday, i am guessing the shelves are emptying pretty quickly on the nice stuff and popular items so i dont want to be shopping when theres only candy canes left for sale. 

nothing else has been going on lately, except that i got nothing done this entire week so now its time to focus and study my butt off again.  i guess i still have today through monday to get some stuff done.  today i gotta finish my pharmacy stuff though so i can recertify.  even though i dont even use the stupid thing.  yesterday i was gonna do this stuff but i didnt start till last night because i spent the morning shopping then i was around the house doing various things then i ended up talking to catherine for like an hour or so before i started to sit down at my desk and think about gettings things done. so hopefully the rest of my evening today will be productive and i can surive the next 3 weeks or so.   

well another day has passed and nothing has changed!  i was planning to tunnel through the acs study guide i bought today but that didnt happen because i started feeling..sleepy.  last night i went to bed at like 11 which i know sounds ‘early’ to some people but it was late for me because i have been crashing at like 10 pm for the past couple of nights.  okay so tonight i am going to….im gonna play video games!

well everyday i go to school in the morning and i listen to the radio.  im not really the type to switch around one million times just because a few commercials come on so a lot of times i just listen through the commercials and keep driving on to school.  anyways every morning there is this stupid commercial about lasik eye surgery.  and so this couple comes on and theyre talking about how they called a lot of doctors but the price was just too high for them to afford.  (obviously this commercial is for a company that says they can offer surgery with payment plans and lower prices)  so then the person is like “we just want quality service without having to pay a premium price”  why dont they just do it themselves then, FOR FREE!

other than  being mad at that commercial all day i have just been learning the stuff that i needed to know last night, that now, is too late to know about. but oh well cause i still have to take the final exam and i’ll need to know it then. so i dont think i did too well last night but i think i can do good on the final exam. the only thing is the final exam will consists of two parts, the part that i will sure to do well on because its a test made by my professor and we know what topics and how the questions will be asked (even though it will still be difficult).  but the second part is this national ACS test thing.  its multiple choice and will count as about 50% of my final exam grade, which is 25% of my total final grade that goes onto my transcript.  now whats bad about this?  well besides the fact that there is only one thing that lets us know ANYTHING about what the stupid test is about is this little study guide that we have to buy for 24 dollars, theres also the whole thing about not having those available for us to purchase until just recently, which is about 2 weeks before the final exam.  2 weeks is like nothing when learning this stuff.  granted its supposed to cover what we’ve covered in class, but really though, taking an exam you know nothing about ?  thats a big risk especially at 25% of your final grade. then what REALLY ticks me off besides the time crunch is that even though my teacher suggests that we buy the book to review and prepare for that portion of the test, he also notes that there are only 20 copies available for the 100+ students class and THEN he says that hes NEVER SEEN THE BOOK BEFORE.  uhhhhh…..WHY are you recommending a study guide that you’ve never looked inside before??  it just doenst make sense to me at all but then again, it doesnt have to because its a fact no matter how much i try to make sense out of it.

well i am really really excited about my project right now because its slowly coming together a lot of the stuff i had was kind of disorganized and finally i put it all together and made sure it was all organized to make things easier on myself while still working on it.  i know i said i would hve this done by august…but yeah.  anyways it will be done some time, but probably not soon.  but like…soon enough. lol.  its just hard to do all this crap all the time.  sometimes i think about putting out money and making someone else do it, but then with seeing all the jerk offs and all the scams out there its hard to see how i can trust.  then if i look into the phone book i dont really know what to look under either.  and i dont feel like driving to some far away office just to get some website built that i can VERY slowly do myself.  alright well i am going to bed now to sleep and then wake up and eat cereal.

of course if i really REALLY wanted that, i would’ve done something about it,  but no ill just keep my blog with the horrible little mistakes on here that eat at me everytime i see my own site here.  thankfully this is a personal blog so no one sees it except me and the random passerby that searches under strange terms on google that happen to come here.  but even though its just for me, i’ve been thinking i’ve had too many useless posts lately so i am gonna sit down right now and actually write down about some stuff thats been happening lately.  which is nothing. 

i’ve been basically living at either my desk or at a desk in the library for the past month or so.  doing what?  well, reading my textbooks, learning about random stuff.  daydreaming.  but today i had a very, very stressfull day!!  three very blood boiling events happened today to me! 

the first thing happened very early in the morning, i woke up and stumbled out of my room of course and i ran into my door.  thankfully it was still dark and no one saw or heard me.  except i had a really bad wake up call from that.  then my cousin and i were talking in class and she said that she likes the smell of coffee cause it wakes her up, and well then i said ‘coffee doesnt work for me, i need a cold shower’.  and she said ‘wow…thanks for sharing.’  now…..i totally dont get it.  whats so bad about a cold shower?  anyways, in the middle of class i was still thinking about what is so weird about a cold shower to wake up, and i kind of got this eerie feeling that the term ‘cold shower’ has something to do with something sexual??  no idea. 

 so after that i went on to my history class and my teacher is going on and on about slavery while i was sitting there thinking ‘i hope there isnt traffic on the way home’.  thankfully the class ended early and i went to the bio building to wait for advising.  after arriving ONE HOUR before they even open, i find that i am STILL behind two other people already there waiting.  then we all had to wait for an hour so they could start, and then i had to wait another 30 minutes to be called in because apparently after asking us for more and more money every year, they couldnt afford to have more than one advisor working for the entire biology and biochemistry department.  then what really pissed me off is that i can never get a straight answer from these people.  you ask them something and it just seems like no matter what you ask them, they have this list of things they can say and they have to pick something off that list to say back to you.  so you cant really get them to verify or clarify anything because if they say ‘you have to take 3 upper level classes’ and then you ask them ‘is that 9 hours total , three hours of credit for each?  or just three hours total?’ and then what do they say?  they say ‘yes, you have to take 3 upper level classes’.  I ALREADY KNOW THAT PART.  ….BITCH.

so the advisors office was no help and after waiting 90 minutes and getting nothing accomplished in terms of planning for my next semesters i was pretty pissed and drove straight home.  then linda called me and we had a good long talk about some stuff.  speaking of linda here is me and linda:

so anyways im talking and talking (we talked a lot).  and then we ended up talking about another friend of ours.  which basically just put us both in a pissed off mood for various reasons too complicated to type out right now.  but of course since registration is going on right now she ends up mentioning classes to take next semester and ends up with the inevitable ‘what am i gonna do?!’   and of course that reminds me of my shitty afternoon spent sitting in an office waiting to talk to someone who doesnt know much more than myself.  which reminds me, i did learn only one thing during that advising session and its that i have to take one of the following classes:

• microbiology
•  plant anatomy
• marine biology

now you might be wondering “why would anyone want to do that to themselves? ” well i was wondering the same exact thing.  apparently i’ve got to take one of those three very unappealing courses to graduate.  so i dont know what i’m gonna do about that yet.  well i would keep typing and complain about more stuff (theres no where else for me to direct my anger at these days) but i guess i will stop for tonight and go study for my exam tomorrow. 

well i had a couple of them actually. which is never good.  well apparently i missed out on some stuff while i’ve been daydreaming lately.  including how i am supposed to sign some sort of degree plan?  well yeah that date is passed so now i gotta wait till next semester and do it.  and then i found out my organic exam is this friday night and not next friday which is what i’ve been thinking it was scheduled for this whole time.  and the WORST reality check is that i can NOT live without having a job for longer than the next two months.  i think its a miracle i’ve actually survived this long anyways, its been almost a year since i’ve had a job and i’m still surviving and buying crap and eating out.  a whole year of ‘normal’ living without having a job.  well now i need to get my act together and find some sort of steady income and so that is like…WOW to me right now because that means i’ve got a lot more to deal with than i planned for. 

not that i didnt arleady know that i cant go on like this for too much longer, but i guess because i didnt expect it to catch me off.  lately i’ve been focusing and doing so much other stuff that i kinda forgot about that whole situation.  well now i have to deal with it and i guess we’ll see what happens. 

1 zillion more to go.  Well today i had my biochemistry test, did okay but not as good as i wanted (like a 108 ..well there was 8 points of bonus but of course i wanna get those too).   i have a lot of crap to do this weekend but recently i have gone back to looking for a job.  hehe.  hopefully i will get hired somewhere.   OR…i can just always bum around.  i like that idea better.  well i will post back with some results soon. 

nothing much to say except that i’m nowon page 375 and i need to read much faster because yesterday i was on 365.  10 pages in a whole day.  very slow.

well things are moving along slowly as you can see and its getting harder for me not to be distracted by crazy urges like wanting to go ice skating all the sudden.   i will update more next week once im done going on my special field trip with chau. yeah we are going to a special store to explore around, lol.  it should be fun and might give me a break before studying for my next big test next wednesday.