Rogue Idea

Well today i had my lab mid term.Â? it was a piece of cake.Â? a piece of cake that was expired. i didn’t do very well but theres pretty much nothing i can do about it now.Â? tomorrow i have my history exam and my biochemistry exam.Â? i think i will do fine but then again what do i know.

so the other day im talking to my mom and she was telling me how her friends have kids who are in college and also trying to get into med school.Â? she said that they are always studying, stressing all the time and working really hard.Â? and then she sees me, and she said she doesnt see that i’m working very hard, or studying much at all, and that i don’t even seem worried or stressed like they do.Â? and im thinking…well thats because i know how to breathe and eat and sleep normally.Â? Not that i don’t work hard or study, but i just do it differently thanÂ? most people.Â? and i also do other things and work on stuff that is unrelated to school because i have interests outside of my textbook.Â? basically any time that they see me doing something unrelated to science they start asking questions.Â? i’m practicing piano - “Why are you playing piano?Â? you should study…when are you taking the mcat?”.Â? i’m reading a book - “why are you reading that book? is it for class?Â? no?Â? ….when are you taking the mcat?”.Â? im online “why are you online?Â? why do you always chat?Â? ….when are you taking the mcat?”Â? PLEASE STOP MENTIONING THE MCAT!Â? I guess they are just frustrated but still.Â? Because you know how parents do that thing where they sort of probe around stuff trying to make you feel like you have to prove something to them?Â? like how theyll casually say “ohh..so and so’s daughter just got accepted to med school, shes this and that and this that and she can also make a pound cake from scratch, etc”Â? yeah.Â? i dont really care.Â? and i think my parents have very slowly started to understand that the ‘you should prove yourself’ tactic doesnt really work because i could care less what people think and what other people are doing.Â? and its very frustrating sometimes because a lot of times i personally know ’so and so’, and what i hear their parents tell my parents about them is sometimes just a blatant lie.Â? all this talk about 4.0 when they really have a 2.5, and how theyve taken this test and that test already but OF COURSE they never mention the score their precious and smart son/daughter made on the exam.Â? its like theyre trying to show off cause their kid is ‘ahead’ of people just because they took the stupid thing.

alright.Â? i am done whining like a baby and being a young person who doesn’t really have a clue but thinks they do.Â? i got my book today from the library so i will be working on that this weekend and hoping to also finish up some certain tasks with my website.Â? also i should probably make this site look better in IE too because its hideous and i can’t stand it.Â? granted i’m the only who comes here anyways but yeah.Â? it still bothers me.