Rogue Idea

okay..well not suicide.  but….well yeah its suicide.  i decided to take a break from my studies tonight since i’ve been in my books all day.  and so i sat down and figured out my schedule for next semester.  i will be going to that fighting traffic, having road rage, bitching in the parking lot, and doing all those things in a lab coat for 6 of out seven days beginning in mid january.  why? well i have a lot of labs to take.  actually, not really but i am behind in a few labs and well each lab is like a 3 to 6 hour blocks, or two 3 hour blocks.  and so the schedule fill sup very quickly, and it also very easily blocks out other options for other classes.  so basically nothing fits together and i had to spread them wherever theyll fit.  and thats how it turns out, that ill be in class every day of the week except sunday. 

 so i guess…its still suicide.  because im taking SEVEN classes.  thats SEVEN things to keep up with, and well they estimate that you need to study 3 hours for each 1 semester credit hour you sign up for.  um.  15 credits times 3 hours is 45 hours, plus the hours spent IN class which add up to 30 hours, so thats 75 hours.  a week only has 168 hours. and i’ve already spent almost half for school.  now plus the lets guestimate 1 hour and 30 minutes of driving a day round trip, times 6 days , thats another 9 hours.  now im up to 84 hours.  that means i have 84 hours left to live.  but i will spent 8 hours sleeping each night, times 7 nights, means 56 hours.  so now i have 28 hours left.  plus i will shower and eat and run little errands and daydream everyday, lets say that 2 hours a day , for 7 days thats 14 hours.  now i have 14 hours left to live.  plus i exercise 1 hour a day, and i wanna practice piano 30 minutes a day, times 7 days thats 10 and a half hours.  now i have 3 and a half hours left of my week.  ..i guess ill save that 3 and a half hours for the ‘give or take’ of my estimates. 

 BUT luckily, i dont study 3 hours for every semester credit i take.  :-)  alright well thats all thats interesting tonight.  im sure it wont be as bad as i think it will be, but the upside is after that semester ill be very freed up in the classes that i  have left to take.  which means more time to sit around and play video games before i try to go to med school.  the downside is, since i will  be extra busy next semester, that means i’ve added that much more pressure on myself right NOW to get allthe stuff i wanna get done, done, so that i can be free next semester and not have too many thingson my plate. 

frankie is planning to come down in january though, so i will not wanna be working on too much stuff when he is here, so that cuts down the time even more.  *sigh* oh well. i guess its better than i focus more on my studies, but i think its gonna be a little crazy going to school and having a class everyday. 

 earlier today i tried to use backpack but i dont know, it just didnt work out for me.  too much stuff on there i dont know what to use it for plus i have my planner.  although its about to run out (i only lasts till this december, thats why i was looking for organizer things online) and while i would prefer to get a new one (well i will save my leather planner bind of course, but i need to buy refills), i am short on cash so i am looking for online alternatives.  well i am going to bed now.  i had a very tiring 30 minutes of..well…reaching into myself for a reason that id rather not disclose (nothing sexual, more gross).  so my wrist hurts and i dont wanna type anymore. 

well i totally forgot to transfer the image folder so today when i went to upload stuff to it, of course it wasnt there.  anyways i uploaded it and here are the pics of that place thati went to while waiting for my car to be towed. :

 

 

a bit gloomy inside as you can see it was stil early and they hadnt even opened the other window thing yet.  i was going to post a picture of me in my new glasses.  but due to some unexpected ‘circumstances’ , i will wait till another day to do that. =)

 well my friend john is putting together some sort of magazine and now that makes me want to start my own magazine too.  so i put that on my to do list (that is longer than the nile already) but hopefully i will get to it sometime.  other than that, not much has been going on, just studying and being busy with nothings.  although i did launch a secret project (nothing is ever really secret with me but this one is…actually it doesnt even need to be a secret - in other words, i dont lose any money or make any money whether or not its a secret, but…i like calling it secret cause it makes it special ), it will last probably…a little over a month.  but after that i will be very happy if things go well. 

and this morning i canceled my site5 account so now im waiting to get my money back.   i dont think ill change anymore hosts which is good news for me because i am getting tired of setting up stuff over andover again (actually, its only because i happened to swtich to people with different control panels so thats why i had to figure everything out each time from zero up).  alright well that is all for now, i think ill take a break from the computer and do laundry now. 

Well after i bitched about the little question mark icons last post, suddenly they dissapear.  and it wasnt only on my computer at that time, cause i asked a few other people to check. i havent changed anything since then…so i dont know why they arent showing up now but as long as they dont show up anymore then i guess im okay.  although now im reluctant to try to fix the other ie thing (the title of the post showing up too big) because what if the little icons appear again?? 

 besides doing that, i have just been studying all day yesterday and today for biochemistry.  im a tiny bit behind in that class so i’ve been slowly catching up again.  and i just realized (thank god) that we are almost gonna register for new classes for next semester in about two weeks. so now i gotta figure out how messed up my schedule is gonna be in the spring.  somehow i ended up having 5 labs linedup for the one semester?  i have no idea how that happened so i guess ill have to see what i can do about it (which isnt much).  5 labs and two lectures.  im pretty sure my schedule is gonna be really messed up, but the thing its sort of my last chance to have my schedule however i want to before my sister graduates, since i dont know how the scheduling will have to work by then with picking up the baby and what not.  so i guess ill have to see how i can make things, im thinkin ill do that tomorrow. 

*sigh* so many damn things to keep up with.  at least today i got an extra hour…if only id get an extra hour …for like 80 more hours this coming week. lol.  also my reviewing stage for the mcat is basically over, so now i will be reviewing and also trying to get some practice in.  which with my new glasses should be a lot better than wearing my old ones at least.  oh yeah i still gotta take a picture of my new glasses.  i pretty much look the same but everything else around here looks way clearer so that makes things easier on my part.  okay thats all for now, more later

finally moved again. this time was the worst time.  i have moved to dreamhost and while the hosting is working things are different in here than in other hosting places i’ve been with.  i cant find a way to upload stuff using the web browser, i gotta use ftp. which just confused the hell outta me at first.  then i had to set up my database here, and their control panel is so annoying.  it doesnt letyou go into phpmyadmin until after you have to create a databse using their little form first.  so you cant create databases in phpmyadmin, you gotta do it in their form or else theres not even a link to phpmyadmin at all.  and you also cant create users without creating a database, after you create that user, THEN you can go find the database list , and then find the users allowed, and then edit their permissions.  also the mysql management is under this section in their control panel called ‘Goodies’.  ..what the HELL is “goodies”??  databases are not goodies, they are databases.  i think dreamhost took their little ‘dream’ theme a bit too far. 

 after some frustrations i was finally able to import my database information into here.  and for some reason i finally decided to work on my css and make the links appear the correct color in IE.  apparently it was working just because i had some code right before the a attribute and it was in comments? i dont know what was wrong, i didnt know what that was either so i just deleted it and now its working fine.  so now my site looks much less ugly in the obvious way in IE as it did before with all the links being blue.  this took like 5 seconds once i actually sat down and decided to fix it.  then i tried to fix the thing where the title of the post is overlapping the time and date on the front pages in IE, but then some crazy stuff happened.  and now…there are thees little diamond shapes (in FF) and boxes (in IE) followed by  question mark every time i try to type two spaces in a row.  why did this happen? i dont know.  *sigh*

hopefully i wont have to move hosts again.  but i have some other ones listed in mind incase i do need to move.  with all this stuff lately the only good thing is that each time i move it takes less time cause im so used to the process now. 

i figured id do an update, again i am pretty much done with the actual website, just adding mostly content right now. but i keep wanting to add this or that and a bunch of little things so that is prolonging the time being spend on the website.Â? then occasionally i find out that something isnt working how i want it to so then yeah that takes some time too.Â? i’m thinking after this tuesday ill be able to work much more on it because i wont have another exam for a while. but until then, ill still be studying for exams.

hopefully tomorrow ill be able to wake up early and study and go to the library in the morning.Â? i dont like this whole ‘being cold’ thing going on outside because i have no winter clothes yet so i am not really ready for it.Â? and its not cold enough to wear a giant jacket but its not hot enough to wear a tank top anymore.Â? so i dont know what to do.

well a while back i bought this giant roll of paper to work my history time line on but then today i realized that it was total crap.Â? well the quality of the paper just isnt all that great at all, i need thick quality white paper, not thin paper that i can see through.Â? so now i’ve gotta go look for another roll of paper.Â? but this one i think ill use for something else then.Â? im gonna have to use it for a lot of something elses though because its a 24 in wide by 75 ft long roll of paper…

just moved over to site5 hosting. hopefully things go smoothly because i am lazy to move again ( i guess its really not a big deal, but being on dial up, doing anything online more than once seems pretty annoying to me).Â? but if things keep getting me frustrated i will probably move pretty soon so i have been looking around for alternatives yesterday and today to see where i can go to in case id like to move.Â? well thats all for now, more later.

well i have just moved but obviously i missed some stuff because my theme is having some issues.Â? i changed some php stuff when i was making my theme so yeah that will break things i guess.Â? i am tired so i will just leave it for now and fix it later.Â? today i have a lot of crap to do of course.Â? so hopefully it will turn out to be a productive day and i wont end up just sitting around and eating and sleeping.

apparently theres an internet cafe here that i can come here and like eat and drink and use their internet. which is what i am on now.Â? the apple lcd screens on the wall are like extra wide screens and they are ….well its REALLY wide.Â? and the keyboard is curved up in the middle.Â? anyways today was pretty sucky.Â? actually, today hasnt even started yet and its pretty sucky.Â? well i would normally not be here except that this morning i thought it was gonna be all gross and humid like yesterday so then i went in shorts and a tank top to my test. then i got here and realized that no, its gonna be cold as hell for the next couple of days.Â? then i was like okay its too cold so i drove out to the university store over here to buy some pants and a sweatshirt.Â? but then i came out and i was ready to drive back tothe school, thinking that driving is gonna gonna be a bitch cause i lost my great parking spot to go buy clothes and now ill have to park far.Â? well nope, cause my car didnt start.Â? and then i was like…wow.Â? its not doing anything.

so i dont know anything about cars and i call my dad and im like…its not doing anything.Â? afterwards he said he was coming but i kinda hoped id still be able to get out faster so i called Huy to come save me, and after a few minutes he came from the campus with van and minh and they called the police to come jumpÂ? my engine or something. well yeah that didnt work worth a crap and the police said it is probably the fuel injector or something, and im like….kay thanks.Â? so theni called my dad back and he had to call this guy to come tow it back to my uncle’s car repair shop and i guesss that will end my school day cause i am probably gonna feel like shit by then (im already 80% there) and i am not gonna come back to school today.Â? i was hoping to not have to come tomorrow and finish my laptop report right now but thats not gonna happen cause im not going back to the school.Â? okay so yeah the tow guy said it would take like 45 minutes to an hour and so i came into this university cafe place, i have never been here before and later ill post some pics.Â? the place has 5 computesr for people to use, its 1 dollar for 10 minutes, 5 dollars for 30 minutes (which doesnt make sense at all) but the customers can use for free (limit 20 minutes if there is a line).Â? but no one else is stuck out here except me so there is no one else in here.Â? well except one guy who is watching tv by the window but that is not near here.

so besides that i had my test this morning and i think i did good except for the damn spectroscopy problem again.Â? so that pissed me off i am gonna have to study some more and try to get that down and then i will be able to make 100’s instead of missing that one thing over and over again. alright well i got my sandwich i ordered, its really short and doesnt have enough meat and also is kinda weird tasting.Â? and it costed me a whole freakin 2.75.Â? damned.

so only one good thing happens to me today : i get to start my weekend early cause im going home right now.Â? the bad thing, now i have to come back tomorrow to turn in my lab report but iguess thats okay cause i sorta wanted to come anyways.Â? wellthats all for now. Â? another good thing: i have a new sweatshirt and pants.Â? the bad thing: i didnt need to spend the money now that im not even staying here.

so today i had a bad morning.Â? i first woke up early only to sit in traffic , i got here ten minutes later than scheduled.Â? then after that i went to starbucks, to find out that they didnt have any white mocha, or anything good for that matter.Â? THEN i found out that they dont take gift cards (what the hell), THEN i got even more pissed because the person who was at the register was being a little bitch to me probably because shes stashed up all that white mocha up her butt.Â?

after that i went to class in a pretty bad mood to sit there and do some problems.Â? class went by rather quickly which was always good. then i went on to history, and we had the stupid TA lecture.Â? which i hate, cause obviously if they were good enough they wouldnt just be TA’s right now. so the lecture was boring and sucky.Â? afterwards i found out that we arent going to have our tests graded and given back till like next week.Â? right, like i can wait that long, i need my grades now so i can make changes immediately.Â?

and during class since i was zoned out i thought of a really good domain name i wantd, but then, OF COURSE, its registered by someone who doesnt plan to use it, and put some sort of search thing on it cause thats how worthless bastards usually do things these days on here.Â? im so sick and tired of all the domains i go to and theres nothing b ut a damned search page.Â? whats even more annoying as fuck is that people are always like ‘oh yeah, the internet is the information highway’, actually, no, because highways are made and they are used, we dont have 10000000000 branches off the highway that lead to nowhere, but have toll booths anyways.Â? I HOPE WHOEVER REGISTERED THAT DOMAIN GETS RAINED ON TODAY.Â? AND that they lose a shit load of money.Â? AND that their car breaks down and no one will help them.Â? ANDDDDDDÂ? Â? that their business fails when they need the money the most and then they lose all their money and have to live off water fountains andÂ? expired animal crackers!Â?

now, if that isnt bad enough (and if you cant already tell im pretty pissed off), yesterday i found that my free host, AGAIN decides to turn off their freehosting.Â? so now, i will have to find hosting, and then resettle my blog here and my frankandyvette site to another place.Â? not that i didnt see this coming, but its still annoying because this is the worst time to find this news.Â? and now i gotta back up my database again and reset it at another server.Â? so anyways i am thinking maybe dreamhost cause last time i looked they had a good deal going on (although i don t know if its still going on right now, but im not sure), but then i need some place thats not gonna let me have downtime (as in, i BETTER NOT FIND OUT my site was ever down).Â? i do NOT want frankie to call me and ask why the site doesnt work.Â? and i do NOT want to try to check my email and get a pop3 error.Â? so im thinking this weekend i will search for webhosts and see what i can find.Â?

am i done yet?Â? no. because apparently, life only gets worse.Â? i have an exam on thursday morning at 8:30. and tomorrow i ahe to study for some stupid quiz and do a 6 hour lab.Â? so yeah today i am gonna be doing a lot of that stuff.Â? other than that, most things will have to be put off till this friday.Â? the only good thing that has happened to me in the past like 5 days is that i got a usb memory stick for only 15 dollars (1 GB) for my frankie.Â? too bad it was limit one per customer.Â? alright well that is all for now, i am gonna go study and think about that domain name owner being rained on.Â?

well its all rainy today and that fits my mood.Â? i had a long day, first i was late to school so i missed my organic class. then i studied with huy in the library and ate a snack with him before our history test.Â? the test was long, not literally but i was writing for the full 90 minutes constantly so that made it feel long.Â? i think i did alright but i messed up on a few dates so im not sure how that will turn out.Â? then i went and studied with chau and that was a long period of time for some reason.Â? i took my biochemistry exam and then went home.Â? then i slept for 3 hours and now im here again.Â? im just feeliing very tired and exhausted today i guess. and sort of sad for no concrete reason.Â? i have to writeup my lab now so i can turn it in tomorrow.Â? tomorrow i’m going to the gym with chau to play for a while.Â? then ill probably go home and sleep more.

tonight i think ill just finish my lab and let that be it.Â? i am just to tired to do much else and am not in a very uppity mood.Â? i have to remind myself to pick up my library book tomorrow though since they have it now.Â? the only problem is that im getting way ahead of myself with the books because i didnt expect them to be in so early. oh well i will just have to try to keep them with me as long as i can so that i can make use of all of them before someone else checks them out.Â? alright well that is all for now.Â? more later

i am extremely tired tonight.Â? i think ill go to sleep now.Â? so what am i doing on here? i dont know. i just cant get this dream i had last night out of my head its been driving me crazy.Â? i told frank and chau about it and they both said its just cause of the stress from this week. but i dont think i’ve really been THAT stressed.Â? anyways in the dream i was in this class with a lot of people that i knew.Â? for some reason i didnt sit next to any of them though and with some people i didnt know instead.Â? the class was extremely difficult and the professor was very tough and asked very hard questions that no one could answer.Â? one day she asked me a question and i didnt know the answer.Â? she told me to figure it out while the class waited for me to.Â? after a while she assigned them something else but i still had to figure out my problem.Â? well while everyone was working she came up to me and tried to help me figure out the problem but i was still very confused.Â? then she kissed me on the cheek.Â? (please dont ask why, cause hell if i know.)Â? anyways i do not specifically remember being able to solve that problem.Â? but then later i remember people were angry because i was the only one who was doing well in the class because the professor liked me.

im not really sure what that dream was about.Â? but its been bothering the hell out of me all day and its annoying.Â? well frank and chau think that its just from the stress.Â? but i dont , i mean what does stress have to do with being kissed by strangers?Â? thats just weird in ANY situation.Â? and very uncomfortable.Â? then today i daydreamed that someone was behind me and was gonna lean over and kiss me.Â? it freaked me out and i turned around to see some of my classmates just give me this bizarre look, probably wondering why i suddenly turned around like i was looking for something when there was clearly nothing behind me.Â? i kind of dont want to go to bed because i might dream about it again.Â? i know its probably just nothing but its still really weird to me.Â? well i am gonna get offline now and call frankie.Â? …and maybe play some video games.